So I haven't written a blog in a while :/ Bad times! But from now on I'm going to start writing more :) I have a little bit to talk about, so i'll just get started..

Helen is home for the summer :) We are having so much fun, lazy days, shopping, etc! we have got gilmore girls on dvd! we stay up early into the morning watching them, one of always fall asleep :P, mostly me! We are sounding more like the Gilmore girls each day :P talking about weird things LOL The ginger cat ;) Helen has got a job, which i'm getting when she goes back to uni :) excited LOL! We've had these muffins that we have wanted to bake but we keep forgetting about them, hopefully they will be made soon, aha!

I've been going to cadets with my little cousin jessica. It is fun :) i have made some good friends. Helen calls one of them my stalker cause she keeps texting me like every hour :P We went to the crawls the other week, so much fun! we had to crawl through a maze in the dark. Me and Jessica worked together and we did well :)

Me and David are doing well :) nearly 2 years!! it's gone fast LOL we have been through alot the last two years but we both have changed, for the better i think :) Niki and Craig have been a laugh the last couple of months, messing about at craig's :) we have all came close and i hope it stays this way a little longer :D

I love my college friends! They are all amazing! Hayley, Kacy, Chelsea, Shelby, Olivia, Charlotte, Bridie and many more :) They are all completely different to my school friends! They all have their own differences and different characteristics :) They see me for who i am too :) They don't use me when ever they need me. They are always there for me whenever i need them and they know that i'll be there when they need someone to talk to. I just hope that we are in the same group next year :) even if we aren't, i know for sure that we will always talk :)

It's nearly my 18th birthday :) i'm so excited! There is one down side to it though :/ my sister won't be here! i'm so gutted but when i go up to see her and her friends they are throwing me a little party to make up for it :) so its all good! I can't wait to meet all her uni friends :D

Nearly a year since grannie died! its gone so fast :/ I'm actually dreading how everyone is going to be :( i think its going to hit my dad the most :( we all know how he gets sometimes but i think its going to be worse :/ but we just have to hope for the best! i'm glad that my grandad has found someone to keep him company when we all go home :) I didn't like the idea at first but now i've seen her and seen how happy she makes grandad, i know its for the best :) Grannie wouldn't want him to be on his own so i'm happy :)

Well thats all i have to say right now :/ I'm going to write a blog more often i swear :) But for now i'm off :) x

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I’ve done my bedroom (Y) it’s so tidy. Now we know who to blame (Helen) lol. The book shelf has gone, and all the books boxed up so i don’t look like a geek J (i love you Helen) i make my bed every morning, with mine and Helens teddys sitting on the pillow.

I’ve been going to bed at like 12 every night cause i don’t see point in staying up if i’m on my own. It feels like being an only child, Helen has gone to Scotland and we never see barry he’s always on that stupid x box (damn david for giving it him)

I’ve finally had time to spend with the mother, we watched a film together the other night. ‘The runner way bride’ what a brill film. Its about a woman saying she’ll get married but then does a runner when it comes to walking down the alie. She finally does it at the end cause its only her and her boyfriend. She didn’t like doing it in front of people.

It’s only short one again lol

Birthdayy

I'm 17 :D
I had to wake up with my couisns face in mine, not a way you wanna wake up on your birthday.
I spent the day with my grandad, he made me a cake which i didnt expect :D, it didn't really feel like my birthday, people dint say happy birthday, people wasnt here :(. I've had to have the hardest day of life, having a birthday with no sister and grannie. Its been soo hard.
i've been given so many gifts which i dont usually get lol. I got phone, bracelets, a rose, neckalace, Dvds and moneyy :D
I went to the cinema with david, to watch a scary film, it nearly made me sick :( never going to a cinema to watch a scary film again, lol. i flung back in my chair when a scary bit came on. :(

Its only a short one todayyy

xx

Grannie :(

Over the past 2 years, Grannie had been recovering from her first stroke which hit the family hard. Everyone fussing over her when you could clealy tell she didn't want all the fuss. On the 7th august, she had been to the doctors to get the all clear, that she had fully reovered from her stroke. Everyone was ever so happy, Grannie the most. Then the worst happened..

On the 8th august, i answered the phone to grandad asking for helen is a worried voice. We expected it was just that Grannie had fallen out of bed, but half an hour later, the phone went agian. It was Helen saying that Grannie had been taken to hospital, thinking that she has had an other stroke. We all took turns in going to see her at the hospital. On the 11th august, Grandad, Uncle Jim and Martyn went to see a surgen to see what was wrong with Grannie. The stroke was bad, damaged all the brain sells and that she only had 7 - 10 days left. When we heard the news all our hearts broke, because not only was it that our Grannie was dying, but the days where she could end up dying was Helen's 18th birthday.

Them days were the longest days of our life. Everyone of us taking it in turns staying by her bedside. Sunday the 16th, everyone had to go home, many lived in scotland. So me and helen chose to sleep at the hospital on th 17th, so me and Grannie was the first ones there on her birthday. But unfortuntly we never because got because grannie died on the 17th at 3 am.

Monday 17th was a long day, we were all at Grandads listing to him making phone calls to everyone to let them know that Grannie had past away. We all had to hold it in for Grandad but it felt like Grannie was just upstairs in bed, just waiting to come down and join in with all the fun. Every one was at each others throats for that week. From the death of Grannie till her funeral.

Monday 24th, we all got dressed up to take Grannies body into the church. It was hard. I cried when they covered her coffin with the white sheet, knowing what was going to happen the following day. Everyone went back to Grandads to chose what people were reading. Dad and Helen got something to read. We all had to go bed early.

Tuesday 25th. Hardest day of all our lifes. We was all up at 8 O'clock to have something to eat because we had a long day ahead of us. We were all meetig up at Grandads at 9 30, so we were all ready for then. I had a black dress, tights, high heels shoes and my hair in a bun. We walked around to Grandad's to see the garden full of people that we didn't recongise, but then found out that they were family from scotland. We were waiting for our older brother James to come, but he arrived when the black cars pulled up outside Grandads house. We got to the church, which wasnt as full as i fort it would be. Dad had the first reading but while he was getting up, he banged his head on the speaker which was on the wall. So i had to do the reading, I was sooo scared.
I tried to get through the mass withou crying but it was too hard, i cried through one of the hymes and when helen read the thing about grannie and cried my heart out when they were carrying the coffin out of the church, grandad holded me :(. We all got back into the cars to go to the crem, martyn played his bagpipes into the building while dad and uncles carried in the coffin. when they closed the curtains thats when we all broke down.
The wake was at scawthorpe club, Davidd and Claire was there for us getting back. We all had a good time at the wake, with couisn Desmond keeping the mood happy.

It doesn't feel like she has gone, it feels like she is still round the corner wanting us all to go round and see her... i wish she was still here but i'm gunna have to realise that she isn't

:D:D

I WISH I WAS STILL IN SPAIN!!!!

It's back to how it was before we went to spain. Helen being a bitch towards me and Davidd, bitching to everyone she gets the chance to. Why doesn't she just understand, if they let me see david, we wouldn't be the way we are now. The things that happened on holiday was to do with me and david. Helen and Georgina should not go round telling people, they make the story worser than it actually was.

Georgina went home, was not because of david, she was looking for attention, which she got. So now she is happy why don't everyone just leave me and david alone and stop being nasty to us.

My couisn is pregnant :D the baby is going to be so cute because leoni is pretty. I wish all the best for her and ryan because they will good parents.

1 week 5 days then me and david have been togther for 1 year :D:D we have a bbq on the day. cant wait :D:D

just a short one today :D:D

OMG!

Why doesn't people just keep thier nose of other people's relationship? They should just concentrate on thier own, not no-body elses :@

There is one person who is like that.. sticks her nose in everyones relationship but as soon as anyone has their own way, she goes off on one. Yes, its Libby. She has her nose in everyone's buisness, she knows everything. So, Libby stuck her nose in Louise's relationship and then Louise told Libbys boyfriend she has been cheating on her. Now, she is going to Louise's boyfriend and tell him things to get back at louise.

OMG, how patheic can you get. She should just talk to Louise about it not getting one back at her.

This is just a quick one today..

weekend

Omg! Exams have started, well they are nearly finished. :P Can't wait till i walk out the Exam room that last time. It's going to mint, i swear. They haven't been as hard as i thought they were going to be.. I hope i have done well, so i can go to college and get my dream, that i've been wanting for a while... to become a childminder .. Me + Sarah Mc = Mummy Day Care.

It was Davidds birthday friday, slept the night before.. So he didn't have to wake up on his own.. we stayed up till 12 so i could give him his presents. I sat there watching scary movies, like chainsaw masicar.. OMFG.. i have never shit myself so much in my life.. if i ever hear a chain saw no i run! At 12 i gave him his presents, 2 books (miley cyrus & cheryl cole) and dhw series 2. I couldn't watch another scary movie, so we put dhw on.. next minute i saw him reading his book, miley cyrus. As i watching the film he came to cuddle me, and the next minute he was asleep, i so was not going to carry him upstairs so i had to wake him up.. we had text coming at 3:21 cause that was the time he was actually born.

We went to my house for a while, but no one was in, so we decided we would go to his mothers to get his presents. He has a few holiday stuff now. We had caladoniaon at the night.. everyone sang happy birthday to him, i have never seen him go so red before.. so funny.

Saturday we had planned to go for a meal with his family, it was sunny so we dicided to walk from clay lane all the way to lake side.. it took us 1 hr 10 minutes with a few arguements cause you know what lads are like, they know the right way to go but they clearly don't!

We went for a little walk around the lake. We acted like we were little children again, dancing around the fields and then pushing each other on things in the park.. it was quite fun... we were asking each other questions lol. As we were walking back home, we was expecting the time to be 7 o'clock but it was half 9, which i think stunned us both. After all the walking in fields, Davidds hayfever started showing up. He was so sick saturday night, i had to stay up most the night cuddling him, he was so hot but he was cold.. it was sooo bad.. never seen him like it before.

Sunday night i babysat our bradley... i sat and did my hair and did a little revision for my maths test which was the following day. Bradley sat watching the telly and never really heard a noise out of him till it was the break of his film...

so i've had a good weekend :D