weekend

Omg! Exams have started, well they are nearly finished. :P Can't wait till i walk out the Exam room that last time. It's going to mint, i swear. They haven't been as hard as i thought they were going to be.. I hope i have done well, so i can go to college and get my dream, that i've been wanting for a while... to become a childminder .. Me + Sarah Mc = Mummy Day Care.

It was Davidds birthday friday, slept the night before.. So he didn't have to wake up on his own.. we stayed up till 12 so i could give him his presents. I sat there watching scary movies, like chainsaw masicar.. OMFG.. i have never shit myself so much in my life.. if i ever hear a chain saw no i run! At 12 i gave him his presents, 2 books (miley cyrus & cheryl cole) and dhw series 2. I couldn't watch another scary movie, so we put dhw on.. next minute i saw him reading his book, miley cyrus. As i watching the film he came to cuddle me, and the next minute he was asleep, i so was not going to carry him upstairs so i had to wake him up.. we had text coming at 3:21 cause that was the time he was actually born.

We went to my house for a while, but no one was in, so we decided we would go to his mothers to get his presents. He has a few holiday stuff now. We had caladoniaon at the night.. everyone sang happy birthday to him, i have never seen him go so red before.. so funny.

Saturday we had planned to go for a meal with his family, it was sunny so we dicided to walk from clay lane all the way to lake side.. it took us 1 hr 10 minutes with a few arguements cause you know what lads are like, they know the right way to go but they clearly don't!

We went for a little walk around the lake. We acted like we were little children again, dancing around the fields and then pushing each other on things in the park.. it was quite fun... we were asking each other questions lol. As we were walking back home, we was expecting the time to be 7 o'clock but it was half 9, which i think stunned us both. After all the walking in fields, Davidds hayfever started showing up. He was so sick saturday night, i had to stay up most the night cuddling him, he was so hot but he was cold.. it was sooo bad.. never seen him like it before.

Sunday night i babysat our bradley... i sat and did my hair and did a little revision for my maths test which was the following day. Bradley sat watching the telly and never really heard a noise out of him till it was the break of his film...

so i've had a good weekend :D

arrrrghhhhhh!!

whats the point in saying i can go, then day before change their minds and lie thru their front teeth saying that they never even said yes in the first place. All Davidd wanted to do was go to his Aunties funeral! to say his final goodbye.
We set off to go at 11 15, and we were going to drive till Davidd got tired. we were having a great time, we were singing nursery rhymes together. Seeing if we could remember them from we were younger. But as soon as we were on barnsley road helen phoned saying that if i went dad was kicking me out. So i decided to go anyway. But we were half way up to Scotland, dad phoned saying if we didn't turn back he was going to break Davidds neck and i would be in a lot of trouble.
We turned back because i dint want anything to happen to Daviid so i made him turn round. Helen kept phoning us to tell us what was happening at home, what mum and dad was saying to her. I didnt want helen to get all the blame for it, but she did. Like she always does.
After last night, i really don't like my dad, where does he get off thinking he can threthen an 18 year old. so i wanna move out as soon i can. i hate it here.

Well, it'll be fine soon. I've changed all plans for the future. Me and Daviid are moving up to scotland with helen. Helen is going to uni, i'm going to aye college to d childcare if they it or i'll find something else to do. Davidd is going to get a full time job. That's going to be my new future and i am going to make it happen even if it kills me.

:D

nothing else to do....

So... i can't really sleep.

I'm just sat talking to Mitchel and Barry on msn, while listening to music.

I put my Uncle John song on. Love is all around - Wet wet wet. It made me thing about what we use to do. I know wish i went round to see him more, when he was around. :(

Helen has to put something in for uni. I know it might sound selfish but i really dont want her to go. Who am i going to have my girly chats with.. when im upset at night, she wont be in the next bed ready to give me a cuddle. Ill have to talk on the phone to her. When she gets up to scotland, whose to say, she wont find someone else to take my place and she might not even come back. :'( But we have to let her do what she wants, a chat down the phone everynight will be fine.. as long as she doesn't forget about me. When she goes, i'll be devastated. She not only my sister, she my best friend..

well, thats all i wanted to say...

Everything thats happened ...

So, i haven't written for a while.. not much has happened..

My Uncle John died :(.
I was telling my self that i was going to keep my self together for the funeral but as soon as the coffin came. I was gone. The priest was telling us all what Uncle John had liked to do.. fishing, the sea and going to his caravan. The priest told us to think of a good memory of him. Mine was when it was John's (my couisn) birthday and he had a bounce castle and all the party Uncle John had spent his time chasing me for a kiss.
when i was time for him to go, me and Helen was gone. We cried. I didn't want him to go just yet, i hadn't had my final goodbye. At the end of the funeral, we were all walking to say things to Aunt Janet and John. When Aunt Jane saw me, a smile grew on her face and said that Uncle John would of been happy that i was there, then she hugged me. John said that i had grown but it was because i was wearing high heels.
Me and Helen went to talk to Zoe (my other couisn), she said that my boyfriend was dead.. My Uncle John. When we were younger, he had always said he was my boyfriend.
After the funeral, i went to Davidds and cried my eyes out.. i hadn't seen my Uncle in months cause i thought he would be here forever but no he's not.. i actually do miss him and wanna see him.

I took my little couisn out, Bradley with Davidd. We took him up to Cusworth hall because he had never been in the house before. I took him to the games room first, me and him did all the puzzles whilst Davidd took a gander round. when we were finished, we couldn't find Davidd, so we walked in the different rooms to find him. When we got to him, he was telling us about what had happened in each room. Bradley actually looked like he was interested in it. I had an extra pound in my pocket, so i lent him it so he could by 2 army pencils.
He wanted to go play in the park but it was full of little kids, so Davidd told him we would take him somewhere different to play. We took him to a wood and we played hide and seek. Me and Brad was on a team and Davidd was on his own. It was really fun but then we had to take him home because i had football. We promised we would take him out again.

I have got anything else to talk about. I'll start using this more.

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OMG! Why do People always take things out on me.
It does my head in, davidds having problems at home and he takes it out on me. Mum says we are spending too much time together and that is why we are arguing, mum should know she went through with my dad. I know Davidds having a bad time at home and im glad he tells me these things but it goes to far when he takes it out on me.
Talking to martyn on facebook, telling me he was missing everyone. Aww hes so cute, before he went to the army, you would never know we was couisn, he never even spoke to us, if he ever spoke to us he would call us all names. Now hes taking an interest in our lifes and wants to look out for us.
Even Danny is being different, he was also telling us that he was missing not seeing us much anymore, i think theres something going round.
Me, Helen, Cassy and Davidd are off to benidorm in july can't wait, coming back with a tan. Will miss mi mum and dad but come on theres gunna be sun. Pissed everynight, all og us pulling boys Except davidd. (helen ;) )

The Power Of Vaseline

Well right now at the computer it's me and Helen and we're a little worse for wear due to the amount of vodka and pepsi we've knocked back but at least when we're drunk we get on better than when sober (and we get on great when sober so there's no real difference, lol) and I just thought I'd write a blog.

This morning I went to watch Davidd play football and that was good. You know, it's the most simple show of affection imaginable. I mean, Just Some Girl talks about her boyfriend leaving her a rose but knowing that the person you love is stood standing on the sidelines when you're playing a game makes you smile even more. I mean, I'm always happy to know that Helen and Davidd are stood on the sidelines (or sat in the car) watching me (or pretending to watch as the case is half the time).

We've been drinking all night and have just showed mum and dad this years latest jam - basically jumping and moshing like complete eejits - and dad says we're embarrassing drunks but we just don't care!

And we're taking mum round town which will be a hooooot!

And now Helen has just put enough vaseline on her lips to take care of a whole crowd of people - hers as aloe vera in it because she needs to think of the sensitivity because of her allergies- and she keeps licking it off (which is gross!)

Also Helen is determined that we should go for the X Factor. I bet when she sobers up she'll regret that. She can kind of sing (a black singer is trapped inside of her) but she's not amazing (I love you!) and I think she knows that. So, let's see where this X Factor thing leads to, huh?

Now I'm on the phone to Davidd and our conversation is the most entertaining thing EVER!

Sweet dreams, readers!

Engaged!

So as Davidd says I write every blue moon and the blue moon appears to have fallen on tonight and there is one big piece of news that I have to tell you...

I AM ENGAGED!!

I know some people are going to be like, omg you're too young to be getting engaged but get over it! It's going to be a long engagement and everything.

That's a photo Helen got of us so that we could show of my ring :D

It's amazing, isn't it?